Kaise mujhe tum....

This year I began my account of hindi movies by watching Aamir Khan's Ghajini in Bangalore. I did not like the film that much. But I came out loving one of the songs Kaise mujhe tum... from it. I suppose the reason for this is that the lyrics so beautifully convey what you feel when you've finally found your special someone.

It tells how when its just you and your thoughts, you wonder how did this miracle happen so much so that you can't believe your luck (Kaise mujhe tum mil gayi... Kismat pe aaye na yakeen...).

Then when you actually get a chance to spend some time with this person it leaves you confused because you are unable to decide whether you should just keep gazing at him or close your eyes and just go on endelessly hearing his voice full of love (Dekhoon tumhe ya main sunoo?).

There's only one question that you keep on asking the man in front of you. What took you so long? Why did you not come in my life earlier? (Kyon pehle na aayi tum?)

You remember the times you lamented at God asking Him why you were alone (Main toh yeh sochta tha ke aaj kal... Uparwaale ko fursat nahi). However, now you can't help but thank Him enough everyday with your faith in Him having increased by manifold (Meri nazar mein chadh gaya... Rutbe mein woh aur badh gaya).

Having realized "this is the one" you are left without doubts that you will never let go. Seasons may change but you'll always be there for your beloved every moment from hereon (Badlengi rituen ada ... Par main rahoongi sada... Har lamha har pal).

With that background let me put the lyrics of the entire song for you to savour.

Film: Ghajini
Music: A. R. Rahman
Lyrics: Prasoon Joshi
Singers: Benny Dayal and Shreya Ghoshal

Kaise mujhe tum mil gayi?
Kismat pe aaye na yakeen
Utar aayi jheel mein
Jaise chaand utarta hai kabhi
Houle houle dheere se

Gunguni dhoop ki tarah se
Tarranum mein tum
Chuke mujhe
Guzri ho yoon
Dekhoon tumhe Ya main sunoo?
Tum ho sukoon
Tum ho junoo
Kyun pehle na aayi tum?

Kaise mujhe tum mil gayi?
Kismat pe aaye na yakeen...

Main toh yeh sochta tha ke aaj kal
Uparwaale ko fursat nahi
Phir bhi tumhe banaake woh
Meri nazar mein chadh gaya
Rutbe mein woh aur badh gaya
Zindagi sitar ho gayi
Rimjhim malhar ho gayi
Mujhe aata nahi kismat pe apni yakeen
Kaise mujhko mil gayi?

Badle raaste jharne aur nadi
Badle ret ki tim tim
Chedhe zindagi dhun koi nayi
Badle barkha ki rimjhim
Badlengi rituen ada
Par main rahoongi sada
Usi tarah teri baahon mein baahein daalke
Har lamha har pal

Kaise mujhe tum mil gayi?
Kismat pe aaye na yakeen...

Motivation

I loved this cartoon strip as I sometimes really do behave like Garfield. Thankfully these days with lots of things on my hand and head like my pre-synopsis presentation, synopsis submission, wrapping up my Ph.D. thesis work, and worrying about it all, I have enough to force me to get out of bed every morning. I am however hoping that my lazy ways and days come soon again. :-)

Wanting more

In the book Oliver Twist there comes a time when all the boys in the workhouse are at the point of rebellion as they are much starved because of the meager amounts of gruel served to them during meals. Lots are drawn and Oliver is chosen to walk up to the manager after supper and say the now famous dialogue:

"Please, Sir, I want some more."

These days I find myself asking the same but for a different kind of hunger. Be it time, love, money or praise I don't feel satiated. Its not that I am being deprived of any of these or that what I have is too less. I simply crave for something beyond that.

This makes me question whether its right to feel like this in a world full of people suffering from deficiencies. But then wouldn't we be just in one place without our desires and ambitions of wanting more? Until you don't ask how will you receive?

Bend it like....

It is said that how flexible you are as a person can be determined from your thumb. People who can bend their thumbs to a great angle are normally willing to listen to reason while those who like me can't, are most likely to be stubborn in nature.

And sometimes I can really be unyielding.

You can see it in my resoluteness to not wanting to learn Marathi or Bengali. Many tried to teach me and failed. In comparison I am making way better progress at picking up Tamil now.

Perhaps my eagerness for attempting any new thing is inversely proportional to the pressure being exerted on me by people to do the same. For instance, in 2006 quite a few of my friends advised me to lose weight. Their suggestions meant well and held reason but instead had an opposite effect on me. I was irritated to the extent that I refused to do anything about it. A year later the story was different. One fine day I on my own joined the gym. What followed was four months of rigorous exercises and a strong determination to keep myself away from tasty high calorie pleasures. Honestly I am keen on getting back into that mode again but my attention is currently directed towards achieving other equally important short term goals.

Being obstinate is "not good". One should be open to suggestions. I understand that if an argument is valid then we should accept it graciously. But since my thumb does not allow me I take my time to do so.

:D