Monday, January 24, 2011

Still missing

Quite a long time back I had done a post titled Missing Something. It was inspired by a question "Is there something missing in your life?" that was printed on an ad board placed at a Cafe Coffee Day table. In the post I presented that slogan in different creative ways. I recollect that at time the line only made me think about the things I had never had then and therefore, longed for, like a visa stamp on my passport, a research paper published in my name, and the hero of my life. But there is another kind of craving, the one which comes with having to let go off something that you actually did possess.

In packing my bags for coming to Uppsala I had to leave behind effects ranging from the simple (such as my favourite books and a carefully built saree collection) to the important which included the familiarity of my surroundings, the security of a home and the comfort that you feel because of a certain person's presence. It is hard not to miss any of these small and big things that you love and are so used to. When spirits are particularly low you sense a kind of deprivation and incompleteness. The only consolation is, in most cases, the sureity of there existence elsewhere and the knowledge of the fact that sooner and not too much later you will get it all back. But till then you have to learn to "be patient in tribulation".

Sunday, December 05, 2010

Some more romantic movie dialogues

1. P.S. I Love You
Denise Hennessey (finishes kissing Tom): What's my name?
Tom: Tom.
Denise Hennessey: Where've you been?
Tom: With all the wrong women. (he kisses her again)


2. Serendipity
Sara: You don't have to understand. You just have to have faith.
Jonathan: Faith in what?
Sara: Destiny





3. 50 First Dates
Henry (to Lucy): You erased me from your memories because you thought you were holding me back from having a full and happy life. But you made a mistake. Being with you is the only way I could have a full and happy life. You're the girl of my dreams... and apparently, I'm the man of yours.


4. Bridget Jones' Diary
Mark Darcy (to Bridget): I don't think you're an idiot at all. I mean, there are elements of the ridiculous about you. Your mother's pretty interesting. And you really are an appallingly bad public speaker. And, um, you tend to let whatever's in your head come out of your mouth without much consideration of the consequences... But the thing is, um, what I'm trying to say, very inarticulately, is that, um, in fact, perhaps despite appearances, I like you, very much. Just as you are.


5. The Holiday
Graham (to Amanda): I have another scenario for you - I'm in love with you. I apologize for the blunt delivery, but as problematic as this fact may be, I'm in love... with you. I'm not feeling this because you're leaving, and not because it feels good to feel this way... which, by the way, it does, or did before you went off like that. I can't figure out the mathematics of this, I just know I love you. I can't believe how many times I'm saying it! And I never thought I'd feel this way again, so that's pretty phenomenal. And I realize that I come as a package deal: 3 for the price of 1. I know my package, perhaps in the light of day, isn't all that wonderful, but I finally know what I want and that, in itself, is a miracle. And what I want is you.

Saturday, December 04, 2010

NCL, Pune has a new Director

My Ph.D. supervisor, Dr. Sourav Pal has been appointed as the next Director of National Chemical Laboratory, Pune. On 1 December, 2010 he assumed duties that this new post brings. This was a day that we, his students, and I am sure his peers as well as colleagues knew was in the coming. It is a moment of pride not only for him but even for those of us who have had the oppourtunity to work with him.

Dr. Pal is well reknowned in the area of theoretical and computational chemistry. Amongst the many honours that he has won are the prestigious INSA and CSIR Young Scientist awards in 1987 and 1989 respectively, Shanti Swarup Bhatnagar Prize in 2000 and J. C. Bose National Fellowship of DST in 2008.

Unlike many research groups, students in Dr. Pal's lab are involved both in development and applications of computational programs. Unlike many scientists he hasn't been afraid from branching out into territories which were not his core subject to begin with but have now become his strong points.

What I liked about Sir as a guide is that he is not a heavy duty hands-on boss. He gives his students a lot of freedom to carry on research in their individualistic ways. At the same time he continues to remain aware of their progress, provide that nudge on those much needed occasions and contribute to their work through valuable suggestions. Dr. Pal once told us that in his view good students need space to excel. A diligent student will really strive and thrive in the absence of a strict daily morning to evening monitoring system. It is with the hope that he is able to help nurture at least one such student that he gives everyone so much independence.

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You can find learn more about the new Director through the following links:
http://www.ncl-india.org/nclnews/news.jsp?mid=15#
http://www.ncl.res.in/tcs/estg/spalhomepage.html
http://www.ncl-india.org/aboutncl/showfilein.jsp?mid=2&sid=66&ssid=83
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Sourav_Pal

Sunday, November 21, 2010

Some tips from my Ph.D. experience

In my last post I had summarized my journey as a Ph.D. student in a poem. But there are some topics that I feel strongly about but were remained unsaid. So I am putting them here pointwise.

Globe trotting


From the very beginning I made it a point to showcase my research at conferences. Of course being able to see a new city or a new country was an added attraction. At the same time I took each occasion seriously. Whether it was a poster or an oral presentation I found I benefited from the question-answer rounds. As an instance, when I presented my work to a committee in NCL which was judging my application for a travel grant to attend an international conference I was offered some suggestions. Realizing the importance of the points I made suitable additions to the paper that I was writing then and this definitely gave it an extra something.

In one of the earlier summer schools that I had participated in I was pointed out a certain flaw in the computational methodology that I was using. With that one comment my entire efforts of a good five months came crashing down. Of course I was horrified and full of remorse. But I also took advantage of the same school and set about discussing with the professors prospective solutions to my problem. I realized I would have to start all over again but with the confidence that I would be on the right track.

I am sure many students doing Ph.D in India will agree with me that getting funding for attending international conferences is not easy. Scientific agencies normally either cover just your travel or just accommodation expenses. In some cases the financial support is not large enough for managing both. The paper work required to receive the reimbursement after returning is tedious as well. But eventually the efforts turn out to be worth it.

My Ph.D. guide used to call these international conferences as melas (huge fetes) for the sheer size and magnitude at which they are organized. But it is exactly for these very reasons that I recommend one such tour to everyone. Only when you go out there you realize what a small speck you are even within your area of specialization. There is nothing like coming face to face with your competition. Watching speakers deliver keynote lectures to full houses instilled in me a dream to one day be up on the dias like them. If you have lost your drive this is a place where you will find it.

Scripting success

I had read somewhere that the best way to learn how to write a good scientific paper is to first find out what appeals to you as a reader. As I went through already published reports in my research field, I singled out the ones whose flow had me hooked till the last line. I took notice of the manner in which the authors discussed the reasons behind the conclusions from their results. This tremendously helped when I penned my own papers.

A common mistake which students make is not checking for bad spellings and grammar. Once deciding up on a journal find out what are the formatting requirements for your article. These days journals maintain detailed guidelines for authors on there websites. Some even keep suitable templates which you simply have to download and fit your paper in. Be particularly careful in the style of referencing used. Ask your friends and siblings to read the final result and take into consideration their views. Rejection on account of careless writing normally leaves a bad impression in the editors' mind for you and even more for your supervisor.

Nailing the thesis


Normally students start the thesis writing process only after taking permission from their guides. But that shouldn't stop you from planning it way in advance. Midway in my Ph.D I drew an outline of how my thesis will be. I knew early on which papers I will be combining together and which dividing into different chapters. This listing also helped bring to my attention areas that needed more work to make my thesis complete.

Towards the end of 2008 I was nearing completion of my Ph.D but the last remaining part was like the elephant's tale refusing to come out of the hole. To motivate myself I began typing Chapter 2 - Theoretical background of my thesis. Indeed it brought a new vigour in my day to day activities. Furthermore, a couple of months later when I went head on into the writing mode after getting my Boss's nod it led to a speedy finish.

I request the students who are writing or about to begin, to love this act... to take joy in it. Decide on your own formatting scheme within the realm of rules of your university. Many like to add quotations in the epilogue and prologue. In my thesis I had a quotation for every chapter in tandem with its underlying chemistry theme. I spent days searching those perfect lines.

Remember, your thesis is going to be a compilation of your years of sweat and toil. Its cover is going to bear your name. So delve into it with passion. Then when it is ready you will proudly show it off to everyone. There will be a twinkle in your eye and a big smile on your lips that will refuse to leave. :)

Ode in prose

6th September, 2010 will go down as one of my most memorable days. It was on this day when I gave my Ph.D viva. It was the culmination of all the efforts and struggles of the years gone by. In this poem I have attempted to capture these ups and down moments of my time in NCL. I hope you like it. Here goes...

The story begins in April 2004
As a guest worker I land on NCL's shore
I felt a bit clueless in the start
Making new friends was a hard task
Everybody seemed busy, they knew their way around
"Was I in the right place?" came the question in rebound

Quite some time went by until I adjusted
My new JRF position had me comforted
Untried areas in research I was charting
But that is what made it all the more exciting
2005 was therefore a learning period
Every passing day I was gaining experience

The year ended with an oral presentation at a conference
And another can of 365 days was opened with confidence
I worked hard for the next 5 months
I even wrote a paper for a journal
Much to my dismay it got panned at a workshop
The signs said "You'll have to start from scratch."

Disheartened, broken, crushed I returned
The midnight oil I then practically burned
In this midst my colleagues were merrily publishing
And some even had this to me out pointing
Jealous, angry, upset I became
Promotion to SRF was the only saving grace

In 2007 God tested my patience
My paper swayed between rejection and acceptance
To attend a conference in Boston I also tried
On time but my US visa never arrived
So I went to Delhi to divert my mind
A recharged self I did there find

2008 was probably my best
The jigsaw pieces were getting finally set
Two of my papers saw the light of the day
And a third one was well on its way
For a week I went to Sydney and another to Singapore
The latter had me (thanks to my Boss) as an invited speaker

Personally and professionally things were looking up
I decided it would be in 2009 that I would wind up
I juggled running calculations and writing chapters
Bound I had 8 thesis copies ready come September
Seeing my name embossed was a proud moment
I was so happy, I could not contain it

With a thumping heart I submitted my thesis
I wondered what will now motivate me to surge ahead
The deal was not yet over I reminded myself
It was another year before I could give my PhD defense
Thankfully I spoke well in my dissertation
I even answered decently in the Q&A session

The committee declared me as elgible for the award of the degree
And a fortnight later I received a letter confirming my Doctorate of Philosophy
With this my association with NCL came to a close
Along with the victory, was a sense of loss
This was some journey I must say
So I wrote this ode to everyone regale